Tonite was girls night. Long fabulous talks shared over yummy treats with a handful of my dear friends. It was perfect. And therapeutic.
After discussing my poor parenting skills and as a result my guilt, resentment, and helplessness I gained some perspective. I thank R & C for that tonite. And God. And Olivia.
After I arrived home and relieved the sitter I went in the girls rooms to kiss my sleeping beauties. 
I found this note on Olivia's bedroom floor.
I found this note on Olivia's bedroom floor.
"Mommy, I miss you. When you come in tonite can you sing, 'I've been working on the railroad?' You are so cool. Thank you for always being there for me. Love, Olivia"
I went to turn the page to write a reply and found this~
"Mom rocks. Notes about Mommy. She is the best. She is so cool. She is so nice. I look up to her because she does very, very good things."
I share this information here not because I believe it about me but because I don't. And yet Olivia does. And she loves me for me. And accepts me as I am. What a lovely gift. She is a wonderful teacher. Clearly I need to be a better student and do the same.
This picture was snapped the other night when Olivia was sharing a report with me on the person she most looked up to. And she named me. It was the nicest thing anyone has ever said about me. And it came from my child who knows all of me--good, bad, and ugly. I felt so loved.
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6 comments:
You are the best person ever!!! I hope you had a great night! Liv
Wow! How cool .. even after agonizing and worrying. Your daughter is wise and right - you are the coolest, the nicest and the best. She has a terrific role model. Looking forward to the next get together. R
Thank you, R. YOUR wisdom and insight were so appreciated. And the kind words are embedded in my heart. That was cool how it worked out, 'eh? I love it when the stars align. I say we our gatherings a monthly deal or figure out some plan to connect. It was wonderful. And yes, therapeutic! Let's do a "family thing" here soon, too. We'll chat... By the way, Eric is still driving (Sun. morning- 1:30 to be exact...)
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Yup, when stars align it's a GREAT thing! If only I could remember that when the morning chaos is in full swing and we are *all* screaming!
Loved spending time with R and the rest of the gang Sat. eve. Thank you for inviting me! Your dear friends are so lovely.
Yes, let's make it a regular monthly gig. Heck it is cheaper than therapy.
We are all flawed my friend and what a gift that knowledge is to pass to our children. As I said, you must be doing something right and Olivia is testament to that. She rocks!
What a sweet moment-- to not only find the dear note as only a child could write but to also discover Liv's list. It's that kind of thing that reels us in from all those mother-guilt things so many of us struggle with.
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